As I got older, I wanted to show her that her negative beliefs about humanity weren’t true.
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However, as she shared more personal stories throughout the decades—about her experiences with humans from various backgrounds, as well as those she heard about through others—I was able to see her point of view.
For instance, when my mother was young, her so-called best friend convinced her to allow her to cut her eye lashes short since it makes them grow longer; of course, it wasn’t true, but my mother trusted her “best friend.”
I had similar experiences, to includes ones shared in an old post titled, “Disguised Friendship.”
There are those who say things like, “True friends are always there for their friends no matter what.” For that statement…I call, “BULLshit.”
When closely examined, the ones who usually say things like that are the very ones who take advantage of their friends’ unconditional kindness, loyalty, generosity, and genuine friendship, and/or are a negative influence in their lives.
True friends don’t burden their friends with all kinds of crazy-ass, habitual drama, causing them to spiral downward with them, and then, expecting their friends to stick around. Example post within a series, “Choosing To Be My Own Best Friend.”
In addition, I had my own share of colorful experiences in almost 44 years, to include experiencing the most unloving, mean, cold-hearted, abusive, narcissistic, and even cruel humans.
There are those who say things like, “Blood is thicker than water,” and “family are always there for family no matter what.”
Again, when closely examined, the ones who usually say things like that are the very ones who are a major pain-in-the-ass within the family, often being a heavy burden on various family members with their negative dramas and selfish ways.
Just because relationships are blood-related does not necessarily mean that they are healthy and loving relationships.
Sometimes, the meanest, most abusive—physically, verbally, psychologically (mentally and emotionally) and/or sexually—and cruelest of people are within the circle of so-called “loved ones,” to include blood relations.
Example posts (bullets copied from my About page):
- “Liberating Wings of Freedom: Rising Above Childhood and/or Adulthood Abuse” (especially under subtitle, “Comments of the Unloving Mother vs. the Loving Mother”)—and which also includes links to posts, “Generosity” and “Sharing” (examples of wonderful qualities of my mother)
- “Forgiving the ‘Bad’ To Help Them Remember They Are Good Souls“
I’ve met strangers who are much more capable of expressing kindness than some family members. Example post, “A Similar ‘Bad’ Experience Resurfacing to Be Re-Examined and Transformed” that includes posts, “My First Encounter with a Narcissist” and “Unconditional Love from Angels and Aliens” (A deeper understanding of my bio dad’s underlying, “narcissistic” nature).
Granted, there are loving family members (to include Wounded Healers) who make up for the wounded wounders.
So people who make such one-sided statements about friendship and family (as shared above), use such words as a manipulation tactic, because it can instill guilt and/or shame in another, and make one feel obligated to put up with their crap.
There’s a part of me that can deeply empathize with how god Enlil might have felt towards humanity in ancient Sumerian days. He was apparently so disgusted with humans that he sent a flood to wipe them out. Goddess Sekhmet /Kali are the feminine version (So-called “Destroyers” of that which no longer serves the interconnected whole).
Other the other hand, there’s another part of me that can deeply empathize with how god Enki might have felt towards humanity in ancient Sumerian days.
He apparently saved/rescued a certain human being (and his family) from the flood (like the biblical story of Noah) because he saw great potential of such pure hearted, loving souls. Goddess Ninhursag/Inanna/Hathor are the all-loving feminine versions.
It seems that every decade or so, I have the golden opportunity to cross paths with a few amazing beings (whether they are human or not). Amazing due to their very loving nature rather than just their material world accomplishments.
However, though some people are memorable for certain moments of their being, I’ve crossed paths with a greater number of humans throughout the world (with the exception of most children)—whether personally, online, through others, etc.—who I don’t miss interacting with and/or ever seeing again.
As a matter of fact, the way the overall collective of humankind is heading now—to include someone like Trump becoming President of the U.S.—if there was another major cleansing of the Earth scheduled any time soon, I wouldn’t be surprised (e.g., the probable effects of approaching “12 Planet” labeled by Zecharia Sitchin/”Planet X” labeled by NASA/evidence within many videos—that doesn’t appear altered—shared from around the world).
I also had a few vivid dreams a while back possibly related to the end of this world that I shared in the posts titled, “Dream of Little Angel Alerting Outside of Window“ and “What Exactly on Earth is Heaven?“; I trust these scenarios were a few of many probabilities that can still manifest in this physical reality.
I had other premonitions in the past that came true whether via dream state (dream that matched flying cow incident in post, “Choosing to See Through The Eyes of Universal Love“) or gut feelings in waking state (deer story in examples posts, “A Diary of My Developing Psychic Abilities“ and in detail in, “My Faith In God Requires No Evidence Outside of Me” under subtitle, “Miracle #2 (Premonition)“); so it’s possible.
The Divine, ancient Mother Goddess is known to unconditionally accept/embrace/love ALL of Life (All That Is) within this Universe and beyond since there is Divine Purpose for every interconnected life and non-life.
Only She can accomplish the seemingly impossible, to include the integrating and balancing of the so-called extreme opposite aspects of the Ultimate God with a capital G (i.e., god Enlil and god Enki).
I truly wanted to emulate the Great Mother Goddess’ profound, True/Unconditional Love to the best of my ability by unconditionally accepting/embracing/loving all aspects of self and interconnected others; however, I’ve finally embraced that it’s impossible for me to do and be.
I have to be transparently honest with self, and the truth is…I no longer have a need, desire, or interest to meet, interact with, or even deeply connect with another human again.
If I happen to, that’s fine, and if the experience is pleasant, it’ll be a delightful surprise; but I will no longer look forward to another human encounter experience, get excited about it, or have any positive expectations.
And if that’s a reflection of my own lack of love for certain aspects within self, then so be it; it’s time for those unaware/blind/lost aspects to be transmuted (the easy way or the hard way).
Because I have let go of the need and desire to unconditionally accept/embrace/love everything—to include the old, outdated, overly patriarchal, corrupt, and unloving—I’m closer to the core essence that I truly am…which is ultimate freedom.
Quite frankly, I’m so tired of all the corrupt bullshit of this world, to include all the crap (figuratively and literally) that still shows up in my local, physical reality.
I came back from a trip to visit family—where I have continued to let go of everything that brings me down—only to find out that there’s been another crime in our apartment complex (an assault).
Speaking of assaults—which I now trust is a trigger that’s meant to resurface for re-examination for further healing—this is FYI for those who are ignorant to this important piece of information.
Just because someone was or is in the military, doesn’t necessarily make them a decent to honorable veteran (active, got out, or retired).
Just like the civilian world, there are plenty of corruption and so-called current and former “shit bags” of the military.
Example posts (bullets copied from my About page):
- “The Rainfall and Sunshine of Balance” (Army-related post regarding so-called injustice, among other stories)
- “Manipulation” (rape within military) and “Outer Angels and Demons Reflecting All the Inner Ones” (further insights from rape and other Army-related stories)
- “Embracing a Setback to Set Forward” (so-called failures in life—all stepping stones of success)
- “Discovering the Beauty Behind the Walls of the Mentally Ill (Part I of II)” (the beginning of healing that later becomes deep healing during solitude)
Anyway, this is the second crime since my husband and I moved to this overall beautiful and peaceful area (that has a lot of elderly residents), and I shared the story in the post, “Symbolic Message from a Murder: Conditional Love vs Unconditional Love” (part of post series, “The Strange Increase of Death and Disease Showing Up”).
About a few months, we had an increase of certain residents not picking up their BIG dog crap–something that several of us within our building alone noticed.
When I got tired from picking them up—so that our building pets don’t have to step in them—I posted a comment on our apartment website addressing the issue.
I also communicated with management and the residents to find ways to resolve the issue in other ways since passing out posters to encourage people to do the right thing wasn’t effective for at least seven years (we’ve lived here since end of 2015).
In addition, the manager forcing the maintenance team—a group of very friendly and helpful men—to pick up others’ dog poop isn’t a long-term solution as well.
I told her that it wasn’t their job, and that the message she’s sending to the irresponsible dog owners is that it’s basically okay to continue leaving their dogs’ crap throughout the apartment complex lawns since others will clean up after them.
So after my husband and I did some research, I suggested to management and the residents of the website that we use a very effective method—-identifying irresponsible dog owners through their dog’s poop DNA, which can be easily obtained from the dog’s saliva.
It’s known to be used by our apartment’s parent company (a major corporation/real estate investor) for their other apartment complexes with up to a 99% effective rate.
Our manager agreed, but she still hasn’t taken effective action to this day. I no longer care to share any ideas with her; however, I will write a second review when we move out of here.
Two of my neighbors within my building thanked us for posting the message on the apartment website (since they had noticed it too), and a lady from another building also mentioned that her and her family also noticed the ongoing issue of people leaving large dog turds.
However, I received some aggressive and very defensive reply comments from two residents—to include a former cop/now obese college instructor who habitually and conveniently doesn’t move from the front gate (to pick up poop) as his dog freely roams around the dog park by itself.
They (to include an older woman) both ridiculed my idea with their condescending remarks and refused to participate should management decide to implement the idea.
Speaking of the themes college instructors and the tactic of ridicule, the following are related example posts (bullet copied from my About page):
- “Let’s Inflame Our Hearts!” and “Following Heart Over Mind” : letting go of the need to continue attending the overrated and over-charged college or university that often teaches misinformation (stems from ignorance) and/or disinformation (stems from deception); another class that turned me off was “ANT 3233: Frauds, Myths, and Mysteries” where the female instructor (whom I started liking despite her chalkboard-scratching, whiney voice) heavily ridiculed—a popular method used by those who want to manipulate and control the general population, to include discouraging any form of disagreements—the belief in the existence of other than human beings within this GINORMOUS Universe alone (among other topics), which nowadays (ironically) is becoming mainstream knowledge, especially with all the declassifications of once classified information, instantly accessible and available truths, and other countries revealing the once hidden truths (Also check out so far refreshing, very informative, highly intelligent and creative, and intriguing book by Richard M. Dolan and Bryce Zabel titled, A.D./After Disclosure: When the Government Finally Reveals the Truth About Alien Contact). Note: There are wise countries that provide free education to their people after high school because they comprehend the profound concept that what benefits the individual, benefits the whole since we are all interconnected
I shared my own replies to their disrespectful and condescending comments—with facts, sharing the source where I obtained the DNA information, and by calling them out on their communication style—which was meant to reveal to them their own rudeness, ignorance and arrogance.
The man never replied back, but the woman didn’t like a taste of her own medicine, which I made known to her, and she continued to provoke us with her snotty comments.
When she accused me of being passive-aggressive with my replies to her and the college professor, I reminded her, “So it’s okay if the two of you initially make disrespectful and condescending remarks towards me, but, yet, it’s not okay when I incorporate the same communication style in my replies to both of you, to prove a point?” She didn’t reply to that.
I told her that she needed to carefully reread what I had posted since it was very apparent that she missed a lot of details.
I continued that it wasn’t necessary for her to wonder about all the “what if’s” when I had already shared all the information in previous posts.
She didn’t bother putting forth effort to get all the facts that was right in front of her, but was very quick to be pessimistic about a solution that’s actually been proven to be highly effective.
She then went on to accuse us of making fun of her writing ability just because she was disabled. My husband basically told her, “Don’t even go there, no one said anything about your grammar or your disability (that we weren’t even aware of). It was sad that she felt the desperate need to twist our words to make herself look like a victim.
Fortunately, the creator of the community website closed that discussion, but the woman contacted us via a personal message.
My husband had enough of her, and told her a few times to stop being a troll. She brought up being disabled again, and that we were using it against her. So I added, “You know, we’re both disabled veterans, but we don’t feel the need to misuse or abuse the status for manipulation purposes.”
She then threatened my husband and I that she was going to go public with our exchanged messages via Facebook. I basically told her to go right ahead with her desperate and fearful ways, but to ensure that she includes the whole truth. I also added that she really needed to check herself, that people like her are a dime a dozen, and I never wanted to hear from her again.
We left that website, and I look forward to leaving this place soon. We deserve a better community, though I will miss a handful of loving neighbor friends within our building.
It’s as if my Soul/Spirit within (Higher Self) was like, “Let’s create the most challenging Earth school learning environment for her (for life lessons to obtain wisdom) where she’s surrounded by many difficult, PITA (pain-in-the-ass), selfish, arrogant, dishonest, insensitive, narcissistic, hurtful, abusive, cruel, and corrupt humans. Once in a while, we’ll throw her a bone, I mean a treat, like a nice person, place, thing, or event which will help her to bounce back.”
That’s my frustrated, sarcastic, and ultimately fearful ego self’s way of victim mentality thinking and feeling.
However, when I expand my perspective (consciousness), I realize that I’m meant to fully feel the extreme emotions within the entire colorful spectrum.
Otherwise, how else can I know (from experiential knowledge/actual wisdom) what it feels like to not only hate with much passion, but to profoundly love as well.
And how can I deeply empathize with interconnected others, if I’ve never been down the extreme dark and light paths of The One.
This world can repeat history by eventually falling the way many powerful empires did in the past, as well as ancient Atlantis and Lemuria did with their unwillingness to merge as The One—Divine Masculine God energy and Divine Feminine Goddess energy.
OR…we can pull our heads out of our overly tight, collective @$$ where the light don’t shine, and realize that life’s not just about modern technology, material accomplishments, and fear-based ways of living and being. Perhaps, it’s time to spiritually evolve as well—on a collective level. OR not.
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I just intend to Be authentic self at every moment to the best of my ability—which includes knowing what I highly resonate with, and what I definitely don’t resonate with—and I trust that this choice (a MAJOR change/5555) is a leap in my individual and collective consciousness (despite outer appearances).
I’m ready to leave this version of planet Earth, this physical reality (within many parallel realities); and so it is.
I trust that all aspects within me and all around me will physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually evolve at their own pace in Divine perfect timing and order.
Until All That Is reunites as The One/Source/Prime Creator/Holy Spirit/Divine Mother Goddess…Life simply is what it is. 😉
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