In the post, “Reuniting with Ancient Roots and Building the Courage to Be Full-Potential Self,” I shared a brief story of a mysterious, older lady/mystic whom I crossed paths with in Sedona this past fall. She felt so familiar to my soul, especially her ocean-like eyes, that seemed to be filled with much sadness.
She told me that she had studied various spiritual teachings throughout the world for so many hours per day for over 20 years, and she had obtained related certifications and degrees; she was also thinking about starting a business in Sedona.
I noticed that she had a high level of mind/mental intelligence (heavy left-brain centered), but seemed to lack emotional intelligence. On a handful of moments, she seemed oblivious to the verbal expressions, non-verbal cues, and/or feelings of the three others she was having a conversation with (to include myself). For instance, while discussing the topic ancient toning, she demanded that I tone in front of her, when it was initially the two of us present.
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I informed her that I didn’t feel comfortable doing so since 1) I had only practiced every now and then, alone, whenever I felt like it (ever since I had vivid dreams of past lives—perhaps being an ancient Lemurian priestess and an Egyptian priestess, recorded in post, “Dreams of Toning, Synchronicities and Ancient Sound Healing“), and 2) other customers were in the crystal store, and I didn’t want to create an awkward atmosphere; nonetheless, she still insisted. Note: “What is toning?” by Lemurian Choir
Several minutes later, she asked another female to tone (who we were having a conversation with as well), and the female also stated that she didn’t feel so comfortable at that moment.
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About an hour or so later, the four of us (details of others mentioned in post/link above) ended up doing a group tone—when there were no other customers present in the store—but that was due to everyone feeling comfortable at that time. Despite the initial discomfort, it was an amazing experience, and I’m grateful for it.
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She reassured me that it wasn’t her intention, and that she had merely sensed that I wanted her to help me overcome my fear, so she basically gave me that slight nudge to perform. I wondered if that was true, and I just wasn’t aware of it.
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Her perspective is valid, and I can understand where she was coming from; but at the same time, I continue to honor my feelings, and as I shared with her, I know how I felt during those moments—which was discomfort due to the pressuring demand (aggressive, not assertive, masculine energy), rather than the thoughtful asking (see related post by Mystic Mama, “Have the courage to ask~“).
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Rewind back to the middle of our soul-igniting conversation, and the mystic lady introduced me to the name, Bentino Massaro, because she was going to his retreat soon, and though I had never heard of him before, I became curious.
While looking into me with deep eye contact, she emphasized twice that she follows no one, but that she highly respects and admires Bentino.
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Mystery Mystic lady also mentioned (at different points) that Bentino and I were both clean channels of Spirit, and that we spoke of similar things.
No one had ever said to me that I was a clean channel of Spirit—and I had never thought of myself in that light since I figured my ego self interfered whenever my vibrational frequency dropped—but I had no doubt it was an outer message from Spirit within.
In addition, within a week since my encounter with this mystic lady, I spent over an hour with another customer, who’s a Master Reiki lady from Peurto Rico.
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We talked, smiled, laughed a lot, bonded, and even agreed that we felt so comfortable with each other as though we’ve always been close friends.
She looked like a wild, gorgeous, amazon, woman, and I shared my observation with her, which she was delighted to hear.
At one point, I noticed the number synchronicity that we were experiencing together, to include the numbers 111, 555, and 999 on her second receipt; we both became very excited, and she even took a picture of it from the register computer screen.
During our conversation, she also told me that I’m a clean channel of Spirit as well. I was reminded that repetition is a great reminder, and that perhaps it’s time to fully embrace Spirit’s gift. I thanked both ladies for sharing their observations.
Note: Also see an update on this story from the upcoming post, “The Unexpected Encounters with Wounded Wounders in Sedona”
I wondered about this young man named Bentino. I briefly checked out his website and a few of his videos (one of which I highly resonated with and fully watched).
His wide-range collection of book knowledge from around the world, and a lack of personal experiences (experiential knowledge/wisdom), initially reminded me of Eckhart Tolle (and I also realized why the highly educated, but lack of empathy, mystic lady was drawn to Bentino).
Bentino’s multidimensional teachings are also similar to that of Bashar (channeled through Darryl Anka), with Bentino’s own very helpful, highly intelligent additions (expanded perspectives).
I highly resonate with the enthusiastic energy presence and otherworldly teachings of Bashar that I’ve come across so far over the years; granted, he can come off as condescending or patronizing every now and then, but perhaps that’s due to what he may perceive as knuckleheaded questions or comments. Maybe it encourages people to think before they speak (a very beneficial habit to develop for humanity in general).
Anyway, I then took a break from further exploring Bentino since that’s what I felt like doing.
I’ve also briefly come upon certain negative readings and videos about Bentino Massaro, but I take them with a grain of salt because I realize that anyone who is in the public spotlight for whatever time-frame, are going to experience moments or phases where they become targets of those who disapprove of them.
However, from an expanded perspective (the bigger picture), we, as interconnected souls, can all be student and teacher to one another; and we can especially learn from those we judge or label as “not right” or “bad,” just as much as we can learn from the so-called “right” and “good.”
We can extract certain helpful information that we highly resonate with—with much gratitude and appreciation vibes to the generous gifter—and discard or disregard any other information that doesn’t benefit us.
Teal Swan is another example of a spiritual teacher both passionately loved and hated by people; however, what matters to me is not so much her so-called flaws that society deems wrong, bad, or even dangerous, but all the highly beneficial knowledge, wisdom, encouragement, upliftment, empowerment, inspiration, and unconditional love that she shares with humanity and beyond in order to help expand our collective consciousness/soul growth/spiritual evolution.
In the past, I, too, judged certain spiritual teachers whom I was initially drawn to, highly respected, and even liked very much (still do for their beneficial gifts that they shared with humanity and beyond).
- Neale Donald Walsch stating in one of his flyers a while back that our personal life doesn’t matter, though he had taught in one of his books that Life and God are interchangeable (as well as Joy, Love, and Freedom)
- Eckhart Tolle being extremely judgmental about our ego selves (in one of his books)—that only does its best to protect us and help us to be accepted and approved of by society (ultimately to help us survive in this physical world)
- Joel Osteen giving ridonkulous examples in certain sermons, to include how the bible god helped a certain group of people after hundreds of years (like that’s supposed to give people hope or increase their faith)
- Tony Robbins and his crazy-ass lion story (I wrote a post afterwards titled, “A Comment and Different Ending to Tony Robbins’ Lion Story)”
During those times, I felt frustrated, resentful, and even angry towards some of their teachings that didn’t feel good, and vented about them in certain posts.
However, after realizing that despite some their teachings that I didn’t resonate with, there were other teachings that I did resonate with, I later wrote a post sharing this insight, and how it makes sense to be grateful for these gifts, and to deeply appreciate them.
Recently, I was drawn to one of Bentino Massaro’s videos, and I’m very grateful that he shared it, because it expanded my perspective when it comes to the topic of abundance (something that I’ve been sporadically working on tuning into with a matching vibrational frequency).
I have no doubt that it’s worth watching as many times as needed until the information completely sinks in: Empowerment 1.10 -There is only Abundance, no Lack
I shared a summary of this video with my husband, and he was open to checking it out with me. Since he’s a realtor in Sedona, he shared that he had recently noticed (within social media) that Bentino Massaro no longer lives in Sedona.
I asked why, and though he didn’t know the details, he said that Bentino stated in a letter something to the effect that he no longer resonates with the energies of the people from Sedona.
I was able empathize with Bentino because I, too, had told my husband a couple months after we moved to Flagstaff—and while I briefly worked in Sedona at two different locations—that the overall vibes I was experiencing from the people of Sedona (that I crossed paths with) didn’t feel so good, though there were a handful that were lovable and/or loving.
I further shared more of my experiences within Sedona in a draft post about a week ago, but then discontinued. I’ll complete and publish the post if I feel like it.
I loved exploring the main vortexes—and will continue exploring the remaining in the Spring—and was definitely intrigued by the different effects of them (details shared in previous posts).
However, I was quite surprised by some of the apathetic, very judgmental, bitter, condescending, patronizing, angry, passive-aggressive, not so friendly, back-stabbing, and even downright rude people there, to include certain business managers and/or their employees.
The following is an excerpt from the upcoming post, “The Unexpected Encounters with Wounded Wounders in Sedona” which will include insights:
My first job in Sedona, which lasted one day, the older woman/manager and part owner spoke in a kind and happy manner to one of the employees.
However, as soon as that employee took several steps to another section of the store, the manager immediately turned to another employee and started talking bad about her; I was standing next to them as a witness to such sadness.
I was surprised because 1) the manager/owner was much older than me, and not some immature, junior high school girl who doesn’t know any better, 2) she was supposed to be a professional manager/owner, and 3) ironically, her and her very thoughtful husband hired me as an Assistant Manager—upgraded from the original position I applied for—to solve such unprofessional issues that’s been going on for a while among their employees.
I considered having a heart-to-heart talk with the manager/owner about everything that I had observed just within one day (which wasn’t pretty, and more than enough), but I strongly sensed that she was set in her old ways; perhaps if she wasn’t a much older, manager and owner, the talk would’ve been more doable.
She was even super smiley and friendly to certain customers, but as soon as they stepped out, she would whisper something negative about them. I wondered what she would say behind my back as well.
So after a day’s work, I wrote her and her husband a letter (as part of a letter of resignation) that included the observations, as well as some solutions to their past and current problems—like leading by example (as a manager/owner) so that employees don’t mimic negative behavior, words, and actions.
At my second job in Sedona […]
Sedona is famous world-wide for being the spiritual mecca, so I had an expectation that it was an overall (keyword) peaceful, friendly, caring, joyful, wise, and highly spiritual community; perhaps one day.
One of the lessons I’ve learned is that just because a business is a new age store, a crystal store (which I loved to explore), healthy restaurant, or some other spiritually related store, doesn’t necessarily mean that the folks running them are spiritual at heart; so far, the small store Stone Age seemed to be an exception, where the male manager (and/or owner) has a gentle, loving vibrational frequency.
I have no doubt that the powerful energies of the Sedona vortexes can either bring out the best or the worst in people depending on our level of consciousness; hence, just because one resides and/or works in Sedona, doesn’t make one a match to the high, spiritual frequencies nearby.
However, we can also learn from those who are habitually NOT kind because they not only remind us of who we choose not to be, but they can also teach us to develop a deeper, purer compassion for unaware/”lost” souls (aka wounded wounders) who habitually think, feel, believe, behave, speak, and act from fear-based energies. But those details are for another post.
From an expanded perspective, I have no doubt that the once repressed or suppressed aspects of self/Self all resurface when triggered by the intense energies of Sedona, to be noticed, recognized, acknowledged, re-examined, healed, and integrated into the whole self/Self.
And we can either run away from them shouting, “I can’t stand these outer energies!“—like we did in the past, convincing ourselves that these negative energies have nothing to do with us—or face them (our fears) and fully embrace them (the inner fear energies first and foremost) with our greater integrated Mind/Heart Self (Soul/Spirit within), since darkness (ignorance/lost “negative” fear-based energies) is attracted to Light because it yearns to re-member (with the whole/The One).
The extreme energy aspect that I deeply feared since childhood—mostly my biological mother and partially my adoptive father—and later continually ran away from (mostly during my mid-thirties to mid-forties) was narcissism.
My biological father was the most extreme version, and when I thought I had escaped his energy when I discontinued our unhealthy relationship, the same energy later showed up (in another form) as a college classmate’s father (a successful businessman who only bragged about his own accomplishments during his daughter’s graduation party—the way my bio father apparently bragged about his own accomplishments during his father’s funeral, according to my half-sisters from his first marriage ).
Later, it showed up as my husband’s client (an overachieving, retired, Air Force officer who was often arrogant). Then, it showed up as an elderly paraplegic man/neighbor (who was very pessimistic, cynical and completely insensitive to others’ feelings).
I finally recognized, acknowledged, and embraced the fact that there was no escaping this energy aspect that was ultimately a part of self (any every other interconnected soul)/Self (Soul/Spirit within).
As I further learned from Teal, this wounded aspect of self had to show up in others because my fearful ego self kept suppressing this unwanted energy, that was merely asking to be noticed, unconditionally accepted/embraced/loved, healed, and integrated as part of the whole/The One.
Note: For an expanded perspective of the narcissistic energy, see my next post, “Hugging the Wounded Child/Narcissist Energy Trapped Within an Adult Body” The following sentence is from this post:
At the same time, I also learned to unconditionally love self more and more—to include respecting self and developing healthy boundaries—thanks to so-called narcissists and other types of unloving people […]
Sometimes, my husband’s interested in watching other spiritual videos with me as well, to include Teal’s.
In Divine perfect timing and order, I’ll introduce him to the spiritual teacher Alan Watts of back in the day. So far, I’ve sporadically listened to several of his videos throughout the years, and I find them very stimulating on all levels of my being/Being.
We used to watch Joel Osteen a while back (even though we weren’t religious), but I yearned for much deeper knowledge and wisdom from outer spiritual teachers.
I’m aware that the Master Teacher within—Soul&Spirit/I (God) AM (Goddess) Presence—is our ultimate teacher, but sometimes it helps to receive soul-level reminders/mirror reflections.
I was initially drawn to Joel Osteen years ago due to his sunshine-like, magnetic personality; he’s a great motivator with some valid points and moments of heartfelt inspiration, and he has a lot of lovable and loving qualities (to include his big, yet, adorable, ego self that he seems unaware of).
However, Joel’s teachings are limited to what’s only in the bible, to include god (with a small g); but God (with a capital G), Goddess (with a capital G), and ultimately Source/Holy Spirit/Prime Creator/Creator of All Creation: Crop Circle 6666/Divine Mother GODDESS of this Universe and beyond is…
SO MUCH GREATER…
than the bible god (one of many gods and even goddesses; hence, Elohim, “Let us create…”).
I’ve come to the realization a while back that there are, indeed, gems of truth within all spiritual teachings throughout this world, even within the bible itself.
However, many teachings—to include some of Jesus’ original teachings that only stemmed from unconditional love rather than fear-based—have been distorted, edited, rewritten, and eliminated by mankind to benefit their own agendas.
I trust that the key is to be discerning when it comes to whatever we read, watch, observe, or hear about—only taking in what feels true (highly resonates with us), and discarding whatever doesn’t feel good because we can sense the information is meant to instill fear (in order for society to better manipulate and control).
I’m very grateful that I’ve reached a point in my life where I can freely choose whatever I desire to explore, and no longer pay attention to what doesn’t interest or benefit self/Self (Soul/Spirit within).
Since my late tweens to my early forties, I’ve experimented with various religions, to include Catholicism and several denominations within Christianity, as well as other still rigid belief systems (ex.: The Rosicrucian Order, AMORC).
However, whenever I left any of them—due to not wanting to spend the rest of my life within a limiting box—I felt so free, like a heavy load was taken off my back; and I never had any regrets making those decisions, though I did appreciate the new experiences that helped me to obtain much wisdom (experiential knowledge).
So to all the soul teachers out there—and not necessarily “spiritual teachers”—who share with humanity and beyond their own gems of truths, knowledge, personal experiences, and/or wisdom…
Thank you so much…
for your Divine perfect existence, and for being an invaluable gift to self/Self (Soul/Spirit within) and interconnected Life/All That Is throughout this Universe and beyond.